Miriam… and Untimely Demise…
Miriam… and Untimely Demise…
It’s so funny… I could say “I wish I lived in the 60’s” but the truth is, if I did live in the 60’s, I WOULDN’T have been hanging out in the Haight. I wouldn’t have been in the beat clubs. I wouldn’t have been at Woodstock. All those people would have annoyed me greatly. I hate hipsters these days, and it was much worse back then. For me, the only good thing about living in the 60’s would have been all the amazing bands I could go see. I wouldn’t have been part of any movement. I wouldn’t have enjoyed the people, or the culture. It would have only been about that great music, and my having access to it all. Also I guess it would have been nice to live in a time where more people would appreciate my music, because really… it’s lost on most who live now.
Today I was flashed by an underage girl. What a disheartening experience.
There is NO SUCH THING as reluctant fame. Reluctant fame is bullshit. It requires a lot of effort to become famous… a complete hunger, and a drive, lots of hard work specifically targetted at the aim of being famous… and once someone is famous, it requires continuous work to remain famous. Whenever you see someone saying they’re famous against their will, they are most definitely a LIAR AND A FAKE. I just wish they’d tell the truth. It’s fine. Admit it. You wanted so badly to be famous, and you did a lot of things to make that happen. Now you’re famous, and you like being famous, and you want to stay famous. I just wish they’d say what’s real. It’s so ridiculous that people believe in this concept!! There’s this idea that it makes a person more romantic and dark and artistic, if they’re famous against their will. “Oh they’re in the spotlight, but they’re such a tortured soul, they hate being famous”… NO. If they really hated it, you’d never hear about them again. If they really hated it, you would never have heard of them in the first place. If they really hated it, they would not be giving interviews talking about how much they hate being famous, thus making themselves even more famous by allowing themselves to be publicized even further. It’s not hard to see how things work. You think a writer, or a musician, or an artist who is creating things for themselves can somehow be plucked from obscurity against their will?! Really? What are they, taken hostage and kidnapped into fame? Forced to be adored by millions? Prisinors of their record companies/publishing houses/studios? Come on. I don’t know why, but it’s what people want, it’s what they like. They like to believe that their musical/artistic/literary heroes are less shallow than they really are…. but the reality is, they’re definintely doing this on purpose. They’re narcissists, they hungered for fame, and now they don’t want to let it go. And that would be totally fine if they’d only admit it! I just wish everyone would stop allowing themselves to be fooled so easily. Make it harder for them! Please. Don’t be so easy. Don’t fall in line right where they expect you to be.
I think people would really be shocked to find out what my religious beliefs are. I know, from the way they talk to me, and the things they say to me, that they are making major assumptions about my beliefs. Of course I don’t correct them, and I’m not going to mention my beliefs here because I think talking about ones faith - especially in such a forum as tumblr - is kind of obscene.
Looking at the ‘lost a best friend’ tag on tumblr helps a little…
Jimmy Kimmel Coachella interviews….
I actually cannot express how happy this makes me. I’m so glad someone did this. The thing is, it’s not just a Coachella epidemic. It’s everywhere. Hardly anyone says anything real anymore. Most people talk about things using these canned phrases and expressions that don’t actually mean anything. And people accept what they’re given without question. They don’t really ‘like’ anything, they don’t really know why they like anything they do, they’re just told that a band or msician is acceptable/cool/the thing and they go along with it. They see someone on TV or hear a band on the radio often enough, and they’re told by someone on TV that this musician is ‘important’ or a ‘real artist’ and then they simply accept that. Wonderful stuff.
“I like all the greats from every genre, just the masters of every genre” - Lana Del Rey
lol I’ve never actually seen anyone say this in real life. Ricky Gervais said it on his horrible blind date in The Office when asked if he liked classical music, and more specifically which composers he liked the best.. his answer was “all the big ones”. Come on people, you’ve got to push yourself to see beyond the crap that they’re feeding you… Let’s not make it so easy for them ok? Please?
Last night I woke Wolf up because I was screaming in my sleep.
My nightmares are always my memories. Real things which happened to me, happening again. I’ve prayed for nightmares about witches, or monsters, or ghosts… anything supernatural, anything unreal… because even the most horrifying fantasy just doesn’t come close to hurting as much as reality has hurt me.
I’m an insomniac because I am in love with the moon, because I find myself most creative when I’m alone, and because I feel connected to darkness… But I am mostly an insomniac because I am terrified of sleep.
I decided to do one of those questionaires where you use song titles from one musician to answer all the questions… Except I used my own songs instead of someone elses.
Pick Your Artist: Syd Lane
Are you male or female: Black Sheep Girl
Describe yourself: Easily Loved Easily Hated
How do you feel about yourself: I Died For Beauty
Describe your current boy/girl situation: I Go Where He Goes
Describe where you currently live: Astride A Grave
If you could go anywhere you wanted to go: Up The Shore
Your favorite form of transportation: Butterflies
Your best friend(s) is(are): The Men of Midnight
Your Favorite time of day: The Moon and the Liar
If your life were a TV show, what would it be called: Charlotte and the Wolf
What is life to you: Simple Pleasures for the Complex
What is the best advice you have to give: My Reach Exceeds My Grasp